Is It time?
I have been a little hesitant to write anything deep, and personal on this blog. After thinking about the title it hit me that allowing folks to look (I mean really look) into my life is scary. I was scared because of what others may think or say. But I layed man pleasing, and fear of man at His feet. So from here on out I am going to walk in my freedom, because after all who the son set free is free indeed!
Many may or not know that me and the fam have relocated to Colorado. I can truly say there is no place like home. We are living in Colorado Springs, Colorado, attending Freedom Kingdom Enterprises (Apostle Dutch Sheets) Zion has started the second grade, and Hilda and I are currently looking for employment. The move from Michigan wasn't an easy move, it was difficult to leave behind great friends that were more like family. We didn't see eye to eye with many, but we felt deep within our hearts, and within our spirits that is was time.
HOW IS ALL STARTED:
God began to speak to us about our family that lived in Colorado through Isaiah 58:7....and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood. I first took this as, okay I need to call more, I need to write more, or I need to visit more. I stated calling more, and writing more, and actually visiting more. The more I visited the more I realized I had been ignoring a big need. My first thought was they need me! This was partly correct but I actually needed them as well. After spending time in prayer we really felt God was releasing us from Michigan. This was very hard because things were going so well there, and me not wanting to deal with any conflict I probably prolonged a decision that should have been made sooner. The last time I had visited Colorado I realized that my Mom's health wasn't so good. Why hadn't I seen this before? I was just blind to it I guess! I didn't really have peace about remaining in Michigan while things were going on here in Colorado. (there are things I can't mention) So this, the peace we felt in out hearts, and confirmation from some trusted sources we proceeded to relocate. The last two weeks before leaving were very hard for us as a family. Saying goodbye, not really sure how people felt about the move, and the fact that we realized we were only going to be able to take what we could fit in our car was heart breaking. Emotions were flying high in our house, and I really had to step up and be the support my family needed. So did other things get overlooked? Unfortunately yes.
We had to trust that God knew before we did that we couldn't carry everything with us. So we prayed and believed that He would work it all out. This is actually a good picture of how it is when we are moving into a new season. You literally can't carry everything with you from the old season. I was reminded of the camel tryn to get through with all the stuff on it's back. Knowing our car wasn't in the greatest shape, we took a two day trip and turned it into about a week. We stopped in Chicago to hang with family for a couple of days, and we went to IHOP (International House of Pray) in Kansas City, MO for a few days. Both stops were needed, we were so refreshed by friends and loved ones!
Once we arrived in Colorado everything just seemed to fall into place. We got a cool apartment with a great view of the mountains. It seriously looks like the back drop of a nice painting. Our apartment was fully furnished when we got here! GOD IS GOOD! He gave us everything back and some. Our landlords are spirit filled believers, who said that we were an answer to prayer. (How often does that happen?) We have some great friends who live 1/2 block up the street from us and we found a fantastic church with a slammin young adult group. All this is great, a testimony of the faithfulness of God. But the greatest thing was seeing my Mom's smile. Proverbs 13:12 says Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life. The smile on her face was a longing fulfilled.
It has been exactly a month and five days since we have been here. This has been the hardest month and five days of our lives. We have had to cling to Jesus like never before, and we told doubt to shut up and because God is who He says that He is! We are currently walking out of a storm holding each other and holding on to God's unchanging and faithful hand! Besides just being with family as much as we can, we don't know what the future holds. Jeremiah 29:11 but He knows so that is all that matters! God is cooking up some stuff that will come forth in due time! But for now we are loving God, each other, and the people He sets in our path everyday!
I am beautifully broken but in the Potters hands!
